Just as we wanted.
Yesterday I figured out that in the last 11 days, we have been busy, like Super-Incredi-Busy, for ten of them.
Ten out of 11 days. That's not reasonable!
It wasn't so unexpected. My husband had been planning last week's music festival for 6 months. My son's birthday comes every year, same day, every time! And lessons are booked in, and homeschool group, and art and writers workshop, all on the calendar. It's a busy, full life we have here.
So our busy wasn't a surprise, but the overflow and Too Full! came a little hard ('specially for one tired girl). Kind of like when you've been on a huge hike and your legs are insanely wobbly. You ache all over. You need to sit, and catch your breath, and you realise…
maybe that last mountain was too much.
You think you can scale them all, when you start. From a distance, none of the mountains ever seem that big. And they are, each one of them, so lovely. But together? Kind of Really Big.
Anyway, now, we are
At peace. At rest.
On the weekend I sent out emails to dear and new friends, who we were supposed to meet up with today and on Thursday, saying, We are going to take some time off! I hope you will let us come another day. We will come happy and with bounce, after we have rested.
Today, the kids drifted downstairs.
My son (who loves his schedule, and having Work To Do) said,
I'll get to my maths, but can I just read this first?
I said, leaning over him on the couch, kissing his nose, "Get to it, don't get to it. Do what you like."
So he is reading all day!
My daughter said,
Can you help me make my felt bird? And,
How do you do blanket stitch again? And,
Here, mum. I made this for you.
(And she has slept deeply and well the last two nights. Still figuring out the going to sleep part, but baby steps are being taken, and she wakes up Happy.)
As for me? I've been reading an amazing book. Banishing the kitten from the kitchen. And sitting at the desk here. Getting ready for my Tuesday writers workshop. I began by feeling a little panicked—what wise thing would I present today? I often write a handout, talk about some aspect of writing, something about story… Until I realised. Today, is a day of REST.
So instead, I came up with a selection of fun writing exercises. Which they will pick and choose from. I won't give a handout, and perhaps I won't be remotely wise. Today, the kids' words will be All.
It's raining outside.
Cat and kitten are out, inspecting the chickens. Dog is asleep on his bed by the couch. Kids are reading.
Nana will come soon, to hang out with my dreamy kids.
All is quiet, but for the turning of pages. My son breathing. My daughter sniffing, once, twice. The rattle-tap-tap of my fingers on these keys.
This is what rest looks like.
Almost, almost, like nothing. But so much deeper than that.